Resentment

As a child, I was required to do – and not do – many things.

I was forced or coerced to do things totally outside of my natural energy flow. The list of these required activities is long and significant. (It included the food I ate, my excretion activities, my sleep, my wake up time, my language, my clothes, my appearance, my hygiene – baths, teeth, etc., etc.)

As I grew up, especially in my adolescent years, I began a process of shedding these requirements. Many of them, however proved to be socially functional or deeply ingrained, and they were kept.

Once I became a young adult, I began to discover that my life was “not working.” I found myself experiencing anxiety, worry, fear, pain, disappointment, anger, sadness, helplessness, depression, etc.. I found diversions – some of them that began in my childhood – to move away from these painful experiences. These diversions included food, sports, music, dancing, sex, smoking…and more!

And while I began to inquire and to explore my feelings, and understood many of the causes of my negative experiences, this understanding did not free me from a feeling of negativity.

What I then discovered was that although I had released many of the requirements that had been imposed upon me, I had not released the RESENTMENT that grew with them! Once I understood this, I began to explore the resentment and to find ways – especially cathartic processes like Dynamic Meditation – to release them. (Catharsis is the process of actively releasing strong or repressed emotions.)

These release experiences made it clear to me that cathartic processes and meditations are an essential part of moving through resentment, which is one of the keys to “growing up!”

If your inquiry parallels mine, and you find that resentment is still very strong in you, then why not experiment with catharsis – especially one like Osho’s Dynamic Meditation? Check out the schedule for Dynamic at the World of Meditation – http://worldofmeditation.com/calendar/calmain.html

Love…

A Bold, Yet Obvious Statement about Our Lives…

I’d like to make a bold, yet obvious statement today:

We have all spent lifetimes running away.

From the pain, shock, shame, anger, sadness and more, we have been diverting ourselves and not effectively dealing with the real underlying issues of our pain.
The diversions are everywhere and universal: sex, drugs, rock and roll, the internet, movies and tv, reading, sleeping, etc.
Running away has been the main strategy for almost everyone, including me…and it is very understandable.
I feel tremendous compassion for the part of me that insists on running away.
To that part, it seems like it is the only option to a feeling of tremendous, overwhelming, unbearable pain and feeling lost.
I have discovered that it is only when I have had enough of what I don’t want, that I begin moving towards the REAL resolution to the pain…and that is to go inside and find out if what the mystics say is true – that there is a place within where there is no pain!
The difficulty is that I have to pass THROUGH pain to get there!!!
But thirty five years of moving inside tell me that the pain isn’t nearly as big as the mind says it is. And, the pain of running away is actually BIGGER!

It isn’t by accident that you and I have met here. It tells me that that this is your work too. And it is clear to me that wherever you and I are on the path of self-discovery, it is EXACTLY where we are supposed to be.
So in that understanding, we can relax a little…take a couple of deep breaths…and continue on…!
I am glad to be a part of a sangha (people on the path of discovery) here on facebook, where we can sit and connect and support one another through the challenges of life!
Love…