Q.: All my life I have tried to be an intelligent person. While there have been some moments of what I might call brilliance, most of the time I feel so ordinary – and even unintelligent – and that pains me. How do I get more moments of brilliance?
Subhan: I understand your desire and the resulting pain from not fulfilling it. So remember, wanting to be brilliant and being brilliant are two different worlds that do not know each other.
When the wanting to be brilliant is there, the mind chatter and resulting tension make the accomplishment impossible. When the brilliance is there, the mind chatter and tension disappear. The difference is the source of the situation. Wanting to be brilliant comes from the mind; being brilliant comes from a space where the mind cannot take control. Rather the mind can then be used to express what is coming from that space. We can call it the zone…the flow…the now…the no-mind. It is full of light, hence the word brilliant. Mozart knew this space and wrote: “It is when I am, as it were, completely myself, entirely alone, and of good cheer…that ideas flow best and most abundantly. Whence and how they come, I know not, nor can I force them.”
Listen to Mozart and don’t force brilliance! Rather, invite it. Create a space where the mind cannot take control. How to do that? The easiest way I know is to meditate. Einstein used to meditate by playing his violin and when he took a bath! That’s where some of his greatest ideas bubbled up!
And remember, your brilliance will be uniquely YOURS! So don’t expect it to look like others’ brilliance. What creativity and newness will come…no one knows…thank goodness!
©2006, 2010 subhan schenker